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November 3rd, 2011

icicleinspring: (kestrel)
Thursday, November 3rd, 2011 06:57 pm
So we still haven't heard from our apartment complex about our lease renewal even though the chick at the office has assured me we are still pending renewal, and it should show up in e-mail soon. The Husband is really anxious about it, which is making me anxious about it. I've got to drop the rent check off tomorrow, and I'm going to have to say something to them again. I'm not good with confrontations, and we're the ones at a disadvantage in this situation. I really would rather Husband deal with this, but at the same time it's more convenient for me to do it. I should be able to fuss at them, but the very thought of going up there tomorrow makes me ill.

In other news, I saw an article somebody linked in childfree on LJ and had to agree with some of the points the writer made. The ones that get me the most are "We always wanted to have a family," and "You wouldn't understand." The first implies that without children I don't have a family, which I find offensive. My husband and my cats are my family. My extended family is my family. My friends are my family. I don't need to reproduce to be somehow grown-up and valid. The second assumes that just because I don't have kids of my own that I'll have no way to relate to what my childed friends are going through. Besides being untrue, it's dismissive. It's almost like saying their problems are far more intricate than mine, and therefore, there's no sense trying to relate. This both offends and saddens me. I want to remain close to the people I love with children, and the thought of them feeling that they can't come to me with their problems worries me.

I wish all the stressful stuff would just disappear. I'm tired of worrying about money, about health, about changes, about stagnancy, everything. I am a person who needs roots and a sense of stability. I've always known this about myself, and with everything up in the air right now I'm really out of my element. I don't really know what else to add, so I'm out for now.