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Monday, April 29th, 2013 11:44 pm
Wow, need an update. I got the job at the orange hardware store and have been there for two months now. I gave the old job my two weeks notice as soon as I got hired at new place, and the store manager there gave me the "I can't believe you're doing this to me" look when I did. Fuck that shit. That place was a pit of misery, and I'm not sorry I left. I had a grueling week and a half of computer training before I even got on a register at new job, and instead of completing hands-on training, I just basically got chucked everywhere and had to figure it out for myself. We have self check-out at new place, and it sucks balls. Returns was awful, too, but I've only had to do that once so far. I love lumber at night. It's dead, and I can just chill over there. Garden isn't bad except for the heat. Ugh, summer is going to be awful, but that's nothing new.

Mm..my car needs a new engine. It's sitting at Ronald's (Dad's race-car driver friend with a garage) for god knows how long. I'm currently driving my dad's truck, which isn't awful, but I miss my little car. I'd like to just get something else, but we'd need major financial help for that, and I don't think that's happening right now. So we'll just have to wait and see what happens car-wise.

Other bad news is the PS3 crapped out yesterday for no discernible reason, and we don't think there's any fixing it. So instead of paying down the BB card, we get to put a new game system on it. Yay. On the plus side, Curtis finally paid off his credit card, so we'll have it paid back down in a couple months.

I made a new friend at work. We hung out with her (we'll call her Em) and her boyfriend last Wednesday and played Cards Against Humanity. It was super fun, and we're going out to dinner with them again this Wednesday. I'm excited to have new friends, as I am horrible at making them, generally speaking. I should have more to say, but that's all I feel like talking about right now.
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Monday, February 18th, 2013 10:05 pm
I had my second interview with orange hardware store last Thursday and got offered the job. I went straight to the place that did the drug test, couldn't produce enough urine the first time, and had to sit there for and hour and a half before I could do it again. It was embarrassing, doubly so because I was on my period. I just felt awkward and miserable. Still haven't heard back from them. I feel like I should have already. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I don't know. I haven't told current workplace anything, and I'm not going to until I know either way. I'm still miserable there. Nothing specific to complain about, just..I'm finding it hard to get out of bed on days I have to go in. It feels like it takes a Herculean effort to pretend I'm happy while serving customers and putting up with my managers and co-workers' collective bullshit. I'm finding it hard to be hopeful about potential new workplaces, either.

I'm afraid I'm depressed, but there are times when I'm fine, too. Then I wonder if I'm making something out of nothing. It's just harder to bounce back from negative things, be they little or small. The Cavalier is overheating. When the light first flickered on and off last week I put water in the radiator and thought it was taken care of. Today the light came back on and didn't go off even with water added. The car started running into the red (above 260..I think it's degrees) on the dash reader, and I bit my nails all the way home. Thankfully it got me back without blowing up, but it was hissing when I parked and steam was pouring out from under the hood. So now I have to beg my father to borrow the truck for Curtis to drive, so I can have the Taurus while the Cavalier goes to the shop. More money we don't have. Lovely.

People who say money doesn't buy happiness are wrong. Money would solve all my current problems. I wouldn't have to work at a place I hate. I could afford to pay my bills, fix my credit, get a house, and not drive a car that always seems to need fixing. I wouldn't have to feel bad about going out to eat instead of fixing something boring at home. I could afford nice things, and I could help out my friends when they were in a bind. I could do so many things I can't do now because I'm forever living paycheck to paycheck. It would be wonderful to know what it's like to not have to worry about things. Fuck the rich. Where's Robin Hood when you need that asshole? I'm done.
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Tuesday, February 5th, 2013 09:10 pm
I haven't updated with anything of substance in a good long while, so here we go. Firstly, Husband's overtime got cut down at work. It doesn't mean we're in trouble by any means, but I've ramped up looking for another job. I got an interview at the orange home improvement store on the 13th for part-time cashier, so we'll see how that goes. Mm, work is same shit, different day. Nothing to add there.

Family woes. Youngest brother has been troublesome since last September. He started smoking weed and disappearing all hours of the day and night to get high and drink with other stupid teenagers. He got picked up by the police while drunk and high one night and had to go to court for it last month, the 22nd of January, I believe. He has to take classes akin to rehab or something. He was truant so much from school that he was expelled, and he isn't doing online school. He's now to attend classes in the evening somewhere in order to qualify to take the test for his GED. Oh, and before he even went to court one time he stole Mom's car and went joyriding with one of his idiot friends. He tried to take her car again a few weeks later, and she caught him and took her keys back before he could pull out of the driveway. Since court he's stopped going out at night. I don't know how much he still gets high and/or drunk, but I would be willing to bet it's any chance he gets. I don't trust him anymore, and I'm just frustrated my mother has to put up with his nonsense until he either does something to land himself in jail or turns 18 and she can kick his ass out. He is holding a job at a car wash now, and he gives Mom his tips and his checks to put in a savings account for him he can't touch until he's 18. I guess that's something. Whatever.

Still family-related. I have an adopted-but-not-really-adopted brother. Mom has taken in a neighborhood boy named Joe M. He's a very nice 15 year-old with a troubled home life, but he keeps his nose clean, does well in school, and plays sports. All more than can be said for my blood brother. Well, the youngest blood brother. But even the middle one was into all that mess when he was younger, so same-difference. And speaking of the middle one, he's getting married sometime in March at Cypress Gardens. Boobs McGee's managing to make an honest man out of him, after all. Though, Mom's told me something disturbing for their longevity. Jorge wants kids, and she doesn't. You can't really compromise there. If he's just holding out for her to change her mind, or they don't think it's really that big of a deal, I don't know, but they really should have a serious talk and think individually about what they're getting into. You can't change someone, and it really wouldn't be fair to expect it to happen. But what do I know, right?

My favorite present over birthday/Christmas/wedding anniversary was my Galaxy Tab II. I've already read seven or eight books on it, and I can use it to web-browse and get apps. Speaking of books, I fell short of my usual goal of fifty a year by one stinking book this past year. Bah! I'm currently reading the last Wheel of Time book and Insurgent by Virginia Roth (second book in the Divergent trilogy, quite good). I've cut down the number of TV shows I follow. I was bored with a number of them, and one got canceled right after I stopped watching it, anyway. I'm still a sucker for Glee, though. Heh.

Oh, new gaming info. I bought Guild Wars 2 at the beginning of January, and I'm currently alt-crazy. I don't have a favorite class yet, but I'm not as partial to Norns race-wise as I thought I'd be. I currently have one out of seven character slots. I think I'm partial to humans and asura, but I do love my char warrior. Anyway, I've only been on WoW the past month to talk to Artist A a couple times, and even before that I'd barely been playing. I bounced back and forth with various toons I've struggled to level, and I think I'm just a bit burned out on it atm. That said, I've suspended my account. If I start to miss it I can always renew my subscription, but I'm not paying for something I'm not playing when I'm obsessed with GW2, which is free-to-play.

This has gotten rather long. I meant to finally get around to doing my yearly tarot spread and actually post what cards I got, but I'm tired and don't feel like it. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow, but that's all for now.
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2013 06:53 pm
Survey of 2012 )
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Monday, November 12th, 2012 12:10 pm
So my Ops manager calls me at 8:38 in the GODDAMN MORNING and leaves me a nasty message about me not calling them back yesterday to confirm that I got my schedule, so I need to call her back right away. I listen to this after a rough bout on the john, so I'm already cranky. I call her back, and tell her I never got a phone call or a text from anyone yesterday. I PROACTIVELY called of my own volition and got my schedule (that should've been posted on FUCKING FRIDAY) from one of the other managers yesterday. She continues to insist that one of the other managers left me a message and texted me and even asks me if I changed my phone number, like it couldn't possibly be one of them that dialed a wrong number or that I'm trying to get out of something. I told her I knew I was supposed to come in at four, and she was all smiles from there. I'm still pissed off. Sorry.

Bitch was acting like I'm dodging her or trying to be a pain in the ass when SHE'S the one who can't put out a schedule until the day before the new work week starts. Excuse me?! I'm so fucking SICK of my store's bullshit I could scream. And I work six days this week. I'm so thrilled. I applied at Publix yesterday. I got a call a couple hours after from the Daniel Island store asking if they were too far away to interest me. I told them I applied at the North Charleston store because it was closer. So great that they obviously think I'm hire-able, but it makes me doubt I'll hear from them again. I mean, if the location I was interested in were hiring, they'd have called me, too, right? I think so. So back to applying everywhere and hoping I get something less shitty than where I am now. Yeah, right.

So of course after all this mess I decide to read fuckyeahretailrobin. Great idea. I come across this post and am shocked by the response from one of the commenters. The OP was posting about calling in sick, including details about her depression, and the backlash she received. The commenter is a manager in retail, and her opinion based on her response is that people fake calling out sick to inconvenience stores and that depression is just an excuse for someone who's really just unreliable and a downer and should quit whining and suck it up or don't work retail.

Let me take a moment to address said commenter. Ahem. WHERE THE FUCK DID YOUR EMPATHY GO TO DIE? Depression is not a joke. People are not robots. We are not made to check our humanity at the door when we clock in and just stand there and take whatever shit customers and even co-workers decide to throw at us with a smile on our face. Working retail sucks the joy out of life. It makes you hate people. I used to be positive. I used to like people. I used to like my job. I don't know that version of me, anymore. She's dead. People like YOU killed her. It takes a special kind of person to work in customer service of any kind and not come out jaded or bitter. I've only met a handful in my nearly twelve years of retail. Most of my fellow co-workers are just like me. We wear masks to make customers think that we exist to cater to their every whim and to make managers like you think that we love our jobs. Here's a wake-up call for you, you heartless bitch. We CAN'T AFFORD TO NOT WORK RETAIL! Not everyone has endless options. In a little place I like to call reality, not everyone has lots of opportunities to work at a job that makes them happy. We take what we can get to put a roof over our heads, food in our bellies, and clothes on our backs. It's called SURVIVING. It's not even really living, and it's killing us inside. So thanks for implying that this poor retail robin is just lazy and making excuses to make life more difficult for higher ups. I hope you never know what it feels like to be so beaten down that you can't function because IT SUCKS.

Okay, rant over. But I'm pretty sure my day is ruined, and I haven't even gone to work yet. AWESOME.
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Saturday, September 8th, 2012 08:45 pm
Someone in [community profile] ask_me_anything asked if people from dysfunctional families thought that their pasts had any significant effects on their personalities and said they were inspired by this article on cracked.com. I would answer with a resounding duh. I didn't do the compulsive lying, and I don't think I have trouble finishing projects. I vacillate between being ultra-responsible and tragically forgetful about important things (like I'm bad with money and have forgotten to pay rent on time more than once).

It wasn't until I got to the second page, though, that I had to pick my jaw up off the floor and go, "Oh wow, that's me." I judge myself harshly. I always have. I never felt like anything I did growing up was good enough. I've gotten somewhat better about this as I've gotten older, but self-doubt is really hard to get rid of entirely..or even mostly. The biggest one for me, though, is the fact that I'm hypersensitive. I was reading through the example, and I just put my head in my hands and closed my eyes in self-recognition. I did this to my husband last night. He was moody and monosyllabic coming in the door because he hadn't eaten all day. I picked up the cues and rather than just let him chill and work it out himself, I tied myself in knots inside thinking he was mad at me, oh god, what could I do to make it better? I do this on a regular basis. I'm sure it drives the people I love nuts. I'm trying really hard not to immediately go to defcon 4 at uncomfortable silences, but it's so hard not to. It's so automatic I'm sometimes at a loss as to how to stop myself.

And I know people who fit these habits. My husband is horrible about finishing projects. He also judges himself more harshly than anyone I've ever met. He still has moments where he looks at me and tells me he doesn't deserve me. It breaks my heart. Others too, of course. One kid I knew growing up was raised by his grandparents (teenage mom didn't want him), and he was the biggest compulsive liar and also perpetually irresponsible. I can very easily see how these traits can be common in people from broken homes/dysfunctional families.
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Monday, September 3rd, 2012 08:43 pm
I was reading the customers_suck community on LJ and got all bent out of shape by something that I probably shouldn't have, but..FEELINGS, yanno? A cashier for one of the evil box empires was complaining about people putting money on her moving conveyor belt (which also annoys the shit out of me), and someone in the comments mentions that some people do it to avoid coming into physical contact with the cashier. In the commenter's example it was a Muslim man who wished to avoid touching a female cashier for religious reasons. I'm going to go against the grain here, and I realize that I'm being intolerant. I want to make that clear right off the bat. Now. I don't give a shit about your UPTIGHT, unreasonable, ridiculous religious edict against your precious skin MAYBE brushing mine for a split second while exchanging currency. I am not DIRTY. I am not DISEASED. I am not UNWORTHY. I am not LESS THAN. It is not okay for someone to do something so stupid (not to mention RUDE) to avoid even the possibility of skimming skin. If it's such a big deal to you..wear gloves. Don't go out in public. I don't know what else, but don't treat service people badly because you have some kind of social hang-up. It's NOT OKAY.

*deep breath* Okay. That's over. Um, haven't updated in a while. Our lease is up at the end of October, and we're not staying at our current complex. They upped the rent another $78 bucks, so with water we'd be paying $900 for our unit. Not gonna happen. Castlehood turned us down with a bullshit reason, but other than missing how much it would've saved us, no great loss there. Current complex are being a bunch of assholes, refusing to give other complexes our rental history with them until we give them a solid answer on our lease renewal. So..I was basically forced to tell them we're vacating and refuse the renewal before I can apply to other places. Good to know. Hopefully we get into the one we really like. I'm expecting a phone call any day now.

Other news, Kisa-brat has seasonal allergies, and I'm having to use medicated lotion on her patchy fur. She's also on Benadryl. I HATE allergies. Pain in my butt, and now pain in my furrbutt. Poor kitty. Vin's fine. Her usual crazy calico self. My bettas Tetsuya and Keneda died. I was sad, but I have since replaced them with a red half-moon named Sly and a generic blue named Fortis. Sly is a con artist. I've seen him unmoving at the bottom of the tank twice now and thought him dead, only to have him darting around begging for food at the top of the tank the next morning. Fortis is the more social of the two. He occasionally hides in his house, but if someone approaches the tank, he usually comes out and follows you back and forth.

Erm, I've read a lot lately. Currently working on Kushiel's Dart again, Feast for Crows for the first time, and Dragonsinger again. Probably won't reread all of Kushiel's Legacy right now, though. I just finished the first book of the Repairman Jack series by F. Paul Wilson, and I think I'm going to like the rest. Husband has to dig out more for me. I've been bad about convincing myself to catalog and pack up my books, but I need to get a move on with it. I want it done before we really have to start sorting stuff and packing up to move. I like to get an early start so we're not cramming everything into boxes at the last minute. Nothing else to add at the moment.
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Saturday, June 9th, 2012 09:03 pm
Most recent news on the way! I took Kisa to Banfield today because her lower lip was swollen. It's probably because of infection, so they gave her a shot of antibiotics and a steroid shot for the swelling. If it doesn't go back down in two weeks we'll have to get it biopsied and see what's up. I think she's gonna be fine. We'll see what happens. Vin is her usual fine monster-brat self. Haha.

I've completed all of the holiday events to date in WoW on Synchali this year, but I had to get Romex to help me with Children's Week. Those PVP achievements are bullshit. God, I hate PVP. Ugh. Other than that, I've kinda taken a break from WoW. I'll get back on for the rest of the holiday stuff this year for my violet drake, but at this point I don't know if I'll get MoP when it comes out or wait awhile. I guess it'll depend on what I'm interested in at the time. I've been playing Diablo III since it was free with the annual pass, and it's okay. I love ranged dps,as usual, so the wizard and demon hunter classes have been my favorites. The monk is okay, too. At least they have self-heal abilities. Newest obsession is Tera, a fairly recent MMO. I got a copy on 5/26 and have been playing that pretty exclusively since. I have a lancer named Ihri to 20, a slayer to 11, one archer to 10, and another to 12. Two archers b/c I decided midway to getting the high elf to 20 that since one of our group already had a high elf archer that felt copy-catish, plus I like elins best, so I made one of those..again. Three elins and one high elf so far. I think I sense a trend. I thought I'd make my lancer my main, but now I'm reconsidering. If I can get my elin archer to 20 before we start grouping again I might use her more heavily for group stuff.

Anywho, still sloughing through the fourth book in the Inheritance cycle by Christopher Paolini. I'm working my way through the third book of A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin, too. Loving the series, but I hate that so many characters I like keep dying. >.< Most of our shows have ended for the season, but AGT started back up for the summer. Trueblood will be starting back up soon, too, but I don't know how much patience I have left for the silliness. Ooo! Anime-wise, we watched Heaven's Lost Property, which I adored, and now we're onto a series called Freezing. It's soo cute. I love fan service with some plot mixed in. Hehe. I'm bored, and my fingers are cramping, so I'm going to go watch TV or something. Tata!
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Friday, April 6th, 2012 08:11 pm
I haven't been moved to post a reaction to something from another site in quite awhile, but this bullshit had me seeing red. I'll direct your attention to the part where the chick responds to the meme with, "I’d just like to take a moment to say that CASHIERS SUCK. they are the single most useless associates at big stores like walmart (where I work). Sure, cashiers are cool when someone needs to be rung out (ringed out?) and leave but what about the other 95% of the time a customer is in the store? Or when the store is dead and all the cashiers can only muster up enough brain cells to continuously clean their belt? Cashiers can suck my dick because you have no idea what a REAL 9 hour day in retail is like if all you’re doing is handing back change and receipts, bitch."

*deep breath* EXCUSE ME, CUNT, but your IGNORANCE is showing! You try taking all the fucking FLACK from customers and management while standing in one place all fucking day long, dealing with lines that never end, the phone ringing off the hook, people screaming at you about stuff you have NOTHING to do with, your relief never being on time, price tags being missing, prices being WRONG, carts overflowing with crap, people wanting double-bagging, no bag, having a re-usable bag with a questionable ODOR, being handed DAMP MONEY OUT OF SOMEONE'S BRA/PANTS/UNDERWEAR, being hit on/ranted at/preached to/sworn at and unable to get away or say anything in your own defense without being written up or losing your job, never getting a break, always being called/thought of as stupid, being treated as an automaton or slave, having things THROWN AT YOU (like credit cards, change, merchandise), being threatened for closing the doors at the end of a shift, having to clean and organize the entire front-end by yourself, being the last one besides management out the door, people on their CELL PHONES, et cetera, ad nauseum. The list goes on and on. How fucking dare you say that cashiers suck? That we don't know what a REAL 9 hour day is? You can suck my nonexistent cock, you judgmental little TWAT.

*exhale* There. That's much better. Thank you for your consideration. *curtsy*
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Sunday, March 18th, 2012 08:50 pm
Haven't updated in forever, so here we go. Last month, say middle of it or so I found out that idiot brother number one (the one two years my junior) is engaged, and his fiancee phoned to tell me rather than him. He didn't even have my number, and I've given it to him numerous times. Shows how connected we are, huh? Idiot brother number two (the 16 year-old) confessed that he lost his virginity and didn't even use protection. I am surrounded by morons. Found out last week he's been pretty viciously bullied at school, and I wanted to go cave some faces in at that horrible high school. I told him he could always, always call me if he needed to talk or just anything. My youngest brother has an antagonistic personality and can be a pain, but no one gets to pick on him but me. My dad had to go to the hospital this past Friday. His potassium was too high and heart rate too low. They got him evened out by taking him off his meds, adjusted them, and today he's out and feeling much better. I'm relieved, to say the least.

That's most of the significant stuff. I'm back to heavily playing WoW. We've gone from Alliance to Horde on Cenarius, and I faction-changed my hunter, dk, and druid. We made a guild, but it's mostly me, Artist A, the Evil DM, and Jermish (Evil DM's bro). Jana and Romex have a couple of friends on an RP server, and I re-rolled another hunter on there to play with them. It's fun so far. I haven't RPed in ages and ages. Other than the RP server, I'm focused on leveling my druid again. Haha.

Let's see. There's also TV. We're watching a couple of new shows, and those are Awake, Smash, Missing, and GCB. Smash and GCB are my new favorites. The other two I'm kinda meh on. Oh, I looove Walking Dead still, and The Voice is awesome mind-numbing entertainment. I'm up to 10 completed reads and working on two more. I started reading Game of Thrones, and it is very good. I'm not thrilled with the latest book in the Inheritance cycle, but I want to finish the series. Nothing else I can think of at the moment, so there we go.
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Sunday, January 29th, 2012 04:01 pm
2011 )
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Sunday, January 29th, 2012 03:34 pm
New Year! Supposed to be better than last, but so far kinda meh. Kisa had to go to an eye specialist to get rid of the fleck in her eye. It was also swollen, vet thinks autoimmune is the culprit. It's better now, and the plan is to treat future flare-ups w/ eye-drops as they occur. My grandfather had staph over Christmas, but he's slowly getting better now. Romex's grandmother broke her neck and had to be in a full halo, but it's due off already, I believe. His mother also had a cancer scare, but it turned out to be something else. It was a rough year overall, and I can't believe that we're already a month into the new one. Haven't posted in awhile, but what else is new, right?

I got another toon in WoW to 85. Props to me. My DK, and I still like playing her. My druid petered out again at 60. I have vowed to level her eventually. I really like the new transmog feature, and both my 85s are now sexay bitches. Haha. I made another hunter, draenei this time. I'm so bad about that. Oo, and I have started collecting companion pets on Elithi. I'm doing pretty good, too. As we speak I'm working on getting all the Lunar Festival achievements. I wasn't crazy about some of the Winter Veil ones, so didn't do all of those. Okay, enough WoW.

I've yet to do the yearly survey, so that's next in another post. I made my goal to read 50 books again last year, and I'm currently up to 3 completed, two in progress. Our TV show line-up is ridiculous, as usual, but I'm loving a few new ones, namely The Finder and I Hate my Teenage Daughter. I think the latter might be done for, though; not enough viewers. The Voice is about to start again, and I will be tuning in. Oo, and a new show starts Feb 6th called Smash. I saw the sneak-peek of the pilot and liked it. Um, we saw Sherlock Holmes II in the theater, as well as, the American version of Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. Both were good, I liked Sherlock Holmes II better, though. I've rambled enough for now. Survey, then I'm done.
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Friday, December 2nd, 2011 06:33 pm
Update on Kisa's eye is that the vet thinks it may be an old scar from a scratch that is irritated. She gave me drops for her eye to use twice daily for ten days and told me to check the mark every five to seven days for a couple weeks to see if it changes at all. If it doesn't clear up or gets bigger we might have to see a kitty eye doctor. I'm hoping that this takes care of it. I really don't want it to be anything worse.

Sad news is that when I took Kisa to the vet Jana called and told me that later the same afternoon they were going to be taking Nibblet (her rat) in to be euthanized. Nibs, you will be missed. We all hope you're in a better place.

On the concert: Tori was absolutely amazing. The person who was sitting on my left near the aisle nearly ruined the whole thing by being a loud, obnoxious drunk during the opening act, yelling out random things like, "I love PUSSY!" Four people complained, and she and her quieter companion got booted from the show. Good riddance. Saved my first Tori concert. I was not disappointed. She is just as good live as in studio, if not better. The hotel was nice, the mall was overrated, the Cheesecake Factory was absolutely amazing. Driving in Atlanta was hell (both as a passenger in my case and driver in Husband's). I highly recommend Tori live if she's your thing. More later.
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Sunday, November 20th, 2011 08:29 pm
Well, we finally have our lease renewal. It went up a little over an hundred dollars, which is total bullshit, but what are we gonna do? So we get to pay a ridiculous price for this unit until we save up enough to move next year. I like apartment living for the most part, but dealing with shitty office staff is the worst. We should be able to afford it with Husband doing so well at work. He applied for a new position with Workforce and got it this past week. I'm happy for him because it's a position off the phones, but it sucks for getting together with our friends because he'll be off Wednesdays and Thursdays now. We'll just have to work around it, I guess.

I'm worried about Kisa's right eye. It's cloudy at the bottom, so I have to take her to the vet soon. That's one more thing I can't afford but really need to do. Like getting my wisdom teeth removed. We need health insurance, but fat chance of that anytime soon. Can anybody say 99%? *sigh*

We went to a new bookstore in the north area, and they have really good trade-in prices. I got the first 5 books of the Animorphs by K.A. Applegate for six bucks. Very nice. Ah, nostalgia. As far as games go, I'm actually leveling my druid again, and I just got my Netherwing rep for Elithi to exalted. Really pretty dragon mounts. Hee. Well, I'm hungry, so more later.

**EDIT: Adding that I called the vet and got Kisa an appointment Thursday Dec. 1st at 3. Now I just have to hope that they can figure out what it is and treat it and that she'll be fine. She's eating and drinking normally, using the litter box fine, and isn't acting weird, so hopefully even if it is something that could seriously affect her sight, she'll be okay otherwise. I can cope with her losing an eye or even going blind, but I'll just break into pieces if anything else happens to her.
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Thursday, November 3rd, 2011 06:57 pm
So we still haven't heard from our apartment complex about our lease renewal even though the chick at the office has assured me we are still pending renewal, and it should show up in e-mail soon. The Husband is really anxious about it, which is making me anxious about it. I've got to drop the rent check off tomorrow, and I'm going to have to say something to them again. I'm not good with confrontations, and we're the ones at a disadvantage in this situation. I really would rather Husband deal with this, but at the same time it's more convenient for me to do it. I should be able to fuss at them, but the very thought of going up there tomorrow makes me ill.

In other news, I saw an article somebody linked in childfree on LJ and had to agree with some of the points the writer made. The ones that get me the most are "We always wanted to have a family," and "You wouldn't understand." The first implies that without children I don't have a family, which I find offensive. My husband and my cats are my family. My extended family is my family. My friends are my family. I don't need to reproduce to be somehow grown-up and valid. The second assumes that just because I don't have kids of my own that I'll have no way to relate to what my childed friends are going through. Besides being untrue, it's dismissive. It's almost like saying their problems are far more intricate than mine, and therefore, there's no sense trying to relate. This both offends and saddens me. I want to remain close to the people I love with children, and the thought of them feeling that they can't come to me with their problems worries me.

I wish all the stressful stuff would just disappear. I'm tired of worrying about money, about health, about changes, about stagnancy, everything. I am a person who needs roots and a sense of stability. I've always known this about myself, and with everything up in the air right now I'm really out of my element. I don't really know what else to add, so I'm out for now.
icicleinspring: (elope?)
Friday, October 21st, 2011 03:47 pm
I'm just as bad as ever at not updating regularly. Much is the same. Got a bit of good news. Will get to that. First, the sheer volume of customers we're getting at work now is crazy compared to a couple years ago. Most of the time I don't have to argue with Lori/Theresa about getting at least 20 hours every week. It still makes me angry when I see people who don't do as much or haven't been here as long get more hours than me. It happens every so often, particularly with Kari, and it pisses me off that they show so much favoritism. The other day Lori comes by the register and another cashier Joy has just grabbed a cart to go start facing and is just telling me what she's doing when Lori goes, "Now that you guys aren't doing anything, one of you needs to start facing, you know, like Kari does." I wanted to bash her face in. I mean, really?

And I find it funny because two nights ago I closed with Kelley, and there was no trash bag in the oops station outside. Also, none of the cleaning solution bottles had been filled for days. It was my first day back working from two days off in a row. Kari closed the night before. Hm, I wonder who didn't do all their closing duties like she's supposed to? I said something to Kelley about it and did all the closing cashier duties in their entirety. Like I do every time. Then I came home and vented to the Husband. I felt bad immediately afterward because I can tell from the look on his face when I'm telling him stuff like this that he feels guilty for not being able to support us without me having to work at a place I hate. And I've put in applications all over the place in the past couple of years, believe me. It sucks.

Enough of that. It isn't going to get better anytime soon. The good news is that Romex was officially cancer-free on the 17th of this month. They got the results of his scans back, and we're all very relieved and happy. Now we have to have a party! Romex and Jana are going to a Ren Faire this weekend, so it'll have to wait til the next one. I'm hoping that it can be a group trip next year, and those of us who don't care for Ren Faires can go do something else. So there. Also, we have a few ideas for simple day trips that we'll have to go over when we're all together next.

In other news, I got my Night of Hunters CD, and I love it. It's the best Tori album for a good long while. Among my favorites so far are "Job's Coffin", "Star Whisperer", "Snowblind", and "Fearlessness". I like more of them, but those are the best so far. I have to memorize them before the concert! Still so revved up for that, I can't wait. I've just finished re-reading all the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice, but I'm so bored with the other books I'm trying to read. I got Strawberry Panic, and it is three novellas in one big omnibus. The writing style is so ridiculous I want to give up. But I love the story, so I'm trying to get through it. Ugh. Also, The Passage by Justin Cronin is slow-paced. The Husband really liked it and gave it to me, but I don't know how motivated I am to finishing it. Well, that's all for now. I'm tired of typing. Haha.
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Monday, September 5th, 2011 08:55 pm
I went to my godson's birthday party on Sunday. He actually turned two August 29th, but the weekend is more convenient to celebrate. He got lots of stuff, but his favorite by far was a little drum you could hang around your neck. He banged the shit outta that thing forever. Poor Jobby. They now have to listen to this music whenever he gets his hands on the thing. You guys have my sympathy. I would like to note that my contribution makes no noise whatsoever. Haha. I got him a stuffed monkey because he likes the stuffed polar bear I sleep with.

In other news, work still sucks. Volume has increased dramatically, but our allotted payroll hours for the store are down for September. Makes total sense, right? *eyeroll* Nothing new to bitch about there, really, so we'll move on.

We got our tickets to Tori Amos' concert in November, and Husband booked us a hotel. Yay! I'm so excited about going. I can't wait. The new album drops September 20th, and I can't wait for that, either! I've been enjoying WoW still. I've leveled a warlock to 20, but my druid is still stuck at 27. I also made a mage, but I find myself easily bored after so long at leveling. Now that Elithi is 85 and has flying, it's so difficult to go back to toons without it. And I love my hunters. Heh. I've really enjoyed doing dungeons with our group. Maybe one day I'll have a toon besides Elithi actually leveled. Ahaha.

I'm rereading Anne Rice still. The next one to tackle is Vittorio. I just finished City of Glass and The Blue Sword. Liked City of Glass okay, but Blue Sword is still one of my favorites ever. I'm also reading Ghost Story by Jim Butcher, but I'm kind of bored with the Harry Dresden series. Meh. And I'm reading Ratha's Creature by Clare Bell about a race of sentient wild cats, one of which is banished from her clan when she steps out of her place in the hierarchy by taming fire. Pretty good read so far.

Watching Roswell on Netflix and a bunch of stuff on DVR. Trueblood is about to be over for the season, and we just finished Degrassi. Still watching America's Got Talent, but I can tell Husband's kinda over it. Well, I'm bored, so I'm going to go so something else now. TTFN.
icicleinspring: (tori - your voice)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2011 03:31 am
I've been addicted to WoW since I started playing, and I've nearly got my first toon to level 85. Yay, me! She is a night elf hunter, and I love the class in particular. I have way too many hunters. I've also enjoyed my druid, although I only have her up to 27. It's nice to have a game everyone in the group (except for my husband, the party-pooper) can play together. The next thing on my agenda is to camp all the lovely pets I want. Haha. Anyway, that takes up most of my free alone time, but I'm still reading a lot, too. Just finished The Marketplace, which was only okay. I liked Anne Rice's Beauty trilogy much better. Eehehe. *cough*

Moving on. Romex had to have surgery last week, but he's doing as well as can be expected. Hopefully they'll be home this week. Maybe more chemo, but it looks like they got all the badness out. He and Jana have been constantly in my thoughts and in my heart lately, and I hope they know how very much they mean to all of us. I'm taking care of their furries while they're gone. It's been no problem at all getting back and forth, just very hot during the day in the car. Ugh. Hopefully I can trade Dad for the Taurus next week just to get me through the rest of the hot weather.

On a personal note, work sucks. We're finally getting new people, which is good, but inventory is this week. That always makes everyone stressed and mean, and customers have been really shitty lately on top of that. Just needy, angry people. I hate being surrounded by all that. So I've been stressed out and short-tempered there, and it's really hard to fake nice. My mood today was just shot. I had a headache and barely got through the day. Took tomorrow off to give myself some breathing room. The wonderful newbie Adam in Petcare took my shift for me. I cross-trained him on the register myself, and he's very quick on the uptake and a good worker in general. It's so rare that they hire someone competent anymore.

Oh! My husband is the best EVER. He's taking me to see Tori on November 29th as an early birthday present. We're going to her show in Atlanta. I'm so excited I can hardly stand it! She's the one person I've always wanted to see live. She's obviously my favorite musician, so no surprise there. That's the one good thing I can think of at the moment. Now I'd better go to bed. TTFN.
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Sunday, August 7th, 2011 08:33 pm
I was thinking of him today and decided to pull a card for him before work. It was the Knight of Pentacles. The card shows a man riding a dragon through the woods. Can see image at shadowscapes.com. It represents a strong, patient, steadfast, and determined man who is riding toward his goal, totally focused on the task at hand. He can call the forces of nature to assist him in any fight that may present itself. I thought that it represents Robby himself in the current situation and that it speaks well of his determination to get better.
icicleinspring: (kestrel)
Saturday, June 18th, 2011 06:49 pm
We went to the zoo last Thursday with the OLG and Artist A's sister-in-law. Getting up at seven to be out the door at eight and up there by ten wasn't my favorite part, but we got there after a slight detour of going to the wrong entrance first. It was slightly frustrating to only get a couple of things done before we broke for lunch since the sis-in-law and her kids didn't join us until noonish, but oh well. Went to the big mall up there for lunch, then back to the zoo until it closed at five. Some members of the group dawdled too much, and we didn't get to see a good half of the zoo. Better planning next time, I think. After another uneventful two hours at the mall we finally got on our way to dinner at Red Robin, which some people almost didn't join us at due to it being so late (my objection to the mall). The restaurant was really good, but we didn't get home until nearly midnight. I had a long, bad day at work the following day, so I was in a horrible mood when I got home.

Theresa at work screwed up the vacation request I put in next week by just giving me Monday and Tuesday as my days off instead of putting them in as vacation and giving me another two days off during the week. I told Lori right before I left Friday to forget about using my vacation time since I didn't want to waste it by tacking it onto the end of a full week's hours. I actually want to use the time to be off, not waste it when I'm going to be working the whole week, anyway. Ugh. I'm just so pissed off thinking about it. I needed those few extra days to just chill, and now I can't put in a new request until after the week of July 4th. On a slightly better note, I'm doing better in the salon. I started off rocky and unsure of myself, but it'll probably be in my best interest to stick it out.

Nothing much to say beyond that. I'm fucking broke again because I wasn't expecting to have to pay for the zoo tickets and fill my gas tank twice in one week. I just paid the phone bill, so I only have $7 until Friday. And even then I'll still be broke because I have to pay car insurance and electricity with my next check. I feel like I'm always behind no matter how good I try to be. With the economy in the shitter and things getting more expensive, I don't know why I act so surprised. Not that I wasn't in a bad mood already with fucking WoW freezing every time I try to go anywhere in Stormwind (I can't even get it to load long enough to get Talesyn out of the stupid city), but now I'm thoroughly annoyed. More later.